IDK what it is but I still like it!

How can I tell you why I love you?

Even if I try I can't, the words that I am trying to say out loud to you,

I just can't...even if I try.

You don't actually realize that my eyes speak louder than my words,

they express the feelings much more easily,

but..you don't realize that do you?

We were like complete strangers even after meeting each other,

there was something missing...IDK what.

It was such an odd feeling...IDK why?

My eyes express my feelings a lot better but of course,

you don't realize that do you?

We know each other so well..yes we do but, in my thoughts.

You know I have said a lot of things to you in my thoughts,

but I couldn't say a word in front of you God knows why.

You...weren't a stranger to me but you couldn't even be mine.

I have become a stranger to myself for the very first time.

That one glance, that one look, it's present in my soul this way that,

I myself have become some tale from the gateway

I don't know why but those words, those stupid useless things which once had no meaning in my life, now hold great importance.

Every moment is different and there is this insobriety everywhere,

but for some reason, it feels good..you get it right?

No I don't wanna make you freak out but I need to tell you this,

that I have seen you thousands of times,

still, my eyes never get tired of looking at you,

this heart doesn't get controlled even on trying,

there is some such thing in you.

Even when I search for myself, I can't find myself

but I end up looking for you in me.

I won't bear distance from you even for a moment,

this eagerness is something different.

We are far and yet so close,

this closeness is something different.

I know it isn't any gain nor any loss

but I don't know why your absence feels like your presence.

Your eyes are in my eyes,

your arms are in my arms.

There is nothing of mine within me,

what has happened even your words are in my words.

This invisible string has been attached to you,

even on separating it doesn't separate,

even on breaking it doesn't break.

You know your presence taught me how to live,

but it didn't teach me how to live without you.

I was not this person, I have no idea what it is,

you see I like things to be planned,

but this....was never in my plan.

It's so confusing, Idk what it is,

but I still like it.

No please don't freak out,

but I wanted to let this out,

I have no idea that if

my words are making any sense,

because nowadays nothing makes sense to me

except YOU!!